void

im not happy
im not satisfied
all joy is fleeting
all happiness is temporary
im not enjoying life


i need a something new and different, a change

or i will rot to my end here

Faith

Its the intangible, that essence of a being, the sense of trust and respect you have for someone, attaining it takes years, losing it takes seconds. As with all precious things, it is fragile and hard to put back together, once broken often impossible to be restored.

As such it happens that today was one of those days, and i lost faith in two people, as with all things in life, that make a profound impact on one, it happens when you least expect it, and it hits you so suddenly that at first you are at a loss with how to deal with it, at first you are overcome with anger, but that quickly passes to shock, which leads to sadness, which slowly takes you into reality, and prepares you to accept it.

'A friend in needs a friend indeed,
A friend with weed is better'

The betrayl is always by those you though would never, those who you think are closest to you, those you had the most faith in.

The pain is a nubbing sensation, and nothing seems to matter much, nothing is granted credence, value or admission.

'Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?'