one month

its been a month.
i neglected you, as i always do
i forget and ignore
till my heart cant take it anymore
then i come to you to spill my sorrows
and curse my dreams
for what are they but whispers
shadows of hope we both know will never be

every glance is a stab
every look kills
every comment is a punch
everything is nothin

or so it seems

yet only you can make me leave
can make walkaway
ignore my life
forget my life
forget my friends

make me happy
dizzying highs
pitiful low's

tonight
no more
its all or nothing
and right now i side with nothing
till something gives or changes