I dont know whats going on, i cant focus, i have no motivation, no will, no nothing. there is not a thing pushing me to study for this test i have to make up tommorow morning, i am about to go play poker and fuck around at rodrigo's house when i should be studying, and yet i dont care. I just dont care. Isnt that something. Makes me wonder whats up with me.

Seems that my head has been taken over and i dont know how to get it back....i miss motivation.

Its strange, i can run 4 miles alone, around a track and never for a second think about quitting or not doing it. I can will myself to work 9 hours in the sun on 2 hours of sleep, hit up the gym, and party all night....yet i cannot for the life of me put my head down, answer 10-15 questions, and read 30-40 pages. Its so strange, i have changed.....physically im in tip top shape....mentally i cannot focus....is this seniorities...or as mark says....its something else "ti sei innamorato o cosa..." is what he says...but that cant be it.

i just need to will myself...so since im such a lazy prat...i will pay for it tonight...no sleep....just straight up work....cause i gotta get this shit.

aint blowing that 3.84 now!

and i love borrowing i-pods....they are too sick