So its a funny thing, i have had two songs in my head rolling around and not really leaving my head, and for me they are really two strange choices, because normally these are not the kind of songs that get stuck in my head, much less when im not in miami and i dont lisen to that kind of music, but am rather exposed to it thanks to my little ghetto thug amigos who eat that shit up. but it all started on the long ferry ride back from dubrovnik, as luna and dani were being boring, meaning they were sleeping on the whole beautfiul 8 hour boat ride that goes by islands and coastlines and all that goregerous shit, on a perfectly sunny day. So i went alone and walked around the ship which is massive, like on of those cruiseliners, and i come to the deck at the back of the boat where there is a nice sun and you can see the sea (hahahaha see sea) parting and the large wake that the ship leaves, along with the billowing smoke that is disperesed into the otherwise refreshingly clean air, and as i sat there watching the ocean and the coast be passed by, i got a little tired of dwelling inside my own head, worrying that perhaps too much contemplation is a dangerous thing; as one thought leads to another and that results in a quick procession whereby u stop actually thinking but rather jumping from A to B and the whole process just leads weird conclusions which have little to do with the initial question. But i had a chair and there where people circling the deck like sharks eager for a chair and a nice view, so i wasnt about to give it up easily, its like that moment when you first wake up, and you know you have to go pee but you dont want to for fear of losing that comfort spot your head has left in the pillow or that position which is just perfect, and lets face it actually getting up and walking to the bathroom is work in itself and it has many a time ruined a great morning. But you always know that you gotta go and the more you delay it the less you enjoy your sleep or view (in my case) and eventually that which your dont want to give up isnt as great as it was cause you are too busy contemplating the getting up. So i got up from my chair, looked at it and hoped nobody would actually have the nerve to take it, and i half speedwalked to where the two ladies were lying down knocked out, and i got out my cd case and cd player (yes yes i know i should get an Ipod but its hard for me to part with $300 dollars esp. as on most trips u cant charge it into a pc that easily and all that, and lets no forget that the jew blood is strong in my veins) and i went back, as i slowly climbed the steps and surveyed the landscape i was relived that my chair was empty and just waiting for me. I must now confess that i just lied, the biggest factor in my decision to actually get up was that the dude sitting 2 meters from me got up and went towards the direction of the bathroom, being the logical and cold calculating ass that i am, i saw my chances of keeping an open chair doubled....and i was right. I got back and both chairs were empty but within a minute some other dude jacked that dudes chair...sucker. Anyways i sat down and then i had the momentus task of picking the cd. Again i lie, i must confess that i am not telling the truth and its not because i dont want to but rather because silly little details i conveniently overlooked come back and haunt my story moments later. I in my infitine hurry and genious forgot to take my cd case so my choice was limited to one cd and its 12 tracks, however the plus was that i had a good one in there. It was 'A Perfect Circle' and the cd was called 'Mer du Noms' which is a really good one, and something i had wanted to lisen to for a few days ago. Anyways i take of my t-shirt, for i dont wanna ruin my nice tan that i got in Dubrovnik, with arm and leg cutoffs making me look well bad, so i roll up my shorts and put my feet on the railing and lisen to the tracks and enjoy every moment, now then i must confess i am a vain man, i had my arms twisted and positioned in a most uncomfortable way because the inside was bloody white and i looked like alex's hand, one side is nice and dark (well alex is more then dark) but the other is white....so yeah i got a nice inside arm tan. As my cd finished again i had to ponder weather to risk it and go and get the case....and with that get to the whole point of this entry. So i risked it again, but since last time was succesful i was less contemplating or worried and thus i took my chance boldly in a comfort zone that surely was a false sense of security (damn my first cliche). Again i rushed and still the two lil ladies were snoring in 3 sweaters while i was shirtless and kinda hot, wanting to jump in. I got my case, came back and moved my chair to a different side, because getting back to the vain part the sun was better right on the back....and as i look through the cd's and lisen to a few for some reason i pick up the cd marked 'eminem, benefit, outkast' now i have 2 cd's with rap on them and i chose this in hope that it has 'bombs over baghdad' and yet after 2 sublime tracks by benefit, and none had anything about being so sick...i came to a track that is an old favorite, the best pump up song, and a Cross Country legend, perhaps the first rap song i ever liked, the SHOTGUN SONG...thats right bone thugs with 2pac doing 'thug love' and after that experince which bought a shiver to my skin, the next track was a old song, but as is typical in rap it was redone by a dude who has 'died hair and wears earings' and it had something about 'singing for a moment.' With an amazing closing rift that luckily wasnt touched, aerosmith really fuckin rock...but yeah it was 'sing for the moment' by eminem.

So there ya go all that to tell you that for no reason im walking around and im singing 'i caught a plane out to cleavland, late last evening to help my niggers clean up some niggers no longer breathing, who do you belive in? hit the wheel....its a cold as world nigga...kill you in your sleep'

Also i ate some sick ass good cevapcici with my dad and luna...fucking huge...

and then on sunday i went to a bbq at my frends house, neven, the guy who i go to gym with and go out with...good times, we looked at pics from NZ and laughed about how silly we were....i have realized that Neven and Gigo (his brother) are my oldest friends, i have known them for 11 years now...which is longer then i have lived anywhere in my life....and thats saying alot....and its perfectly comfortable just chilling with him and eating shit....a refreshing thing....hoping it wont be wack in miami when i comeback and it seems like time has passed me by, but then again on another hand im hoping some things pass me by, i hope people mature and change and not get stuck in a mentality that they have been in for 3-4 years now...but somehow i have a feeling that somethings will never change

Aight thats it for now lil l wants the laptop and i gotta go...

who can spot a lyrical reference in here and name the right artist....and not the obvious ones i did before...